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[♪ mysterious music playing]
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[cane tapping]
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[wheezes]
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-[phone buzzes, chimes]
-[exhales]
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[phone buzzes, chimes]
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[exhaling deeply]
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[news anchor] The citizens of Spain
woke up to unsettling news
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that the body of their oppressive
former head of state
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has been removed from its grave.
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Generalissimo Francisco Franco died…
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-[intercom buzzes]
-…in 1975 and was buried
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in a massive monument that
the Spanish government later decided…
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Hi, hi. Uh…
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Go up the stairs, take a right,
Apartment 6.
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[Ashley] Here I come.
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[news anchor] …fascist
in a more modest state cemetery.
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But now grave robbers have
raided that tomb
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and took Generalissimo Franco's remains.
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Where? Remains a total mystery.
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[speaking Spanish]
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[interpreter] We will not rest at night
until we know for sure
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that the hell-bent Generalissimo
is back underground
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where he can do no harm.
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-[Ashley sighs]
-[grunts]
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Hi, Ashley.
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Nice to see you.
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Dessert. Drugstore Mint Milanos.
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[♪ indie rock playing faintly on speakers]
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[Ashley] Mmm.
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Damn, that's yum. What's in it?
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Uh, it's squished tomato, onion, garlic,
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but the mushrooms are what do the magic.
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I actually…
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I made some stuffed guys too.
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Toaster-oven canapés?
What, am I at a lesbian potluck?
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[chuckles] How'd you learn to--
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[chuckling] No, I-I-I cooked
all my own meals growing up.
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And I thought we were DoorDashing.
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-Oh, Ashley.
-Bro, I'm impressed.
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Well, I have to confess.
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The shells are prepackaged.
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[Ashley] Ooh… [grunts, chuckles]
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Do they taste depressing?
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-Yes.
-[laughs] Aw.
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[sighs]
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Ashley, um,
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can I ask…
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-How I'm doing?
-Yes.
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-Yeah, Ben, that's allowed.
-Okay.
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It's actually why I'm standing here
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dropping disability checks
on bodega Mint Milanos.
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Relax, I'm joking.
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You gotta laugh
to keep from screaming, right?
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You make it so… [chuckles] …easy.
Like, no wonder Kira walked all over you.
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Oh, I'm sorry, that was insensitive.
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Yeah, but maybe…
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maybe fair.
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I probably got, like,
a few footprints on my back.
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Still.
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[whispers] Sorry.
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How's you, Buckaroo?
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Oh, I'm okay.
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Yeah, no, sleep is off.
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Fully off, but…
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-Your dreams are wack, right?
-Mm-hmm.
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Yeah.
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Hey, catch.
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Geez, caught that. [chuckles]
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I'm jumpy, you know? [chuckles]
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Like, being horizontal freaks me out.
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It's like my head's afraid
to even hit the pillow.
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I just bolt right up
before I even fall asleep.
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Hypnic jerks.
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That's what they're called,
and yeah, me too.
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It's a trauma response.
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Are you, like, talking to anyone?
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Yes, um, I made a profile
on a teletherapy thingy.
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-I'm gonna do it when I can manage it.
-Mm-hmm.
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I just started work, you know,
hospice care.
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It's night shifts.
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Good for you.
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It's your life
and you are getting back into it.
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I, for one, am sick of people getting off
on the gory details of my survival.
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[chuckles] Yeah, that happened.
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Right. [chuckles]
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And I usually like being objectified.
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[chuckles]
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To our health.
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To our health.
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[glasses clink]
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I mean, I was panicking.
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And Kira was, like… [inhales] …carrying.
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So I just dry pop a few of her Xanibars
and then just mosey down the Jetway.
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-And then… [clicks tongue] …bam.
-Bam.
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-[explosion]
-[people screaming]
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The plane gets slammed by a microburst.
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[people screaming]
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It was the Bermuda Triangle, Ben.
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I mean, the siding ripped right off.
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-[wind howling]
-[all screaming]
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And suddenly I'm dropping
towards the ocean at terminal velocity.
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Next thing I know, it's weeks later
and I wake up from a coma.
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Find out not one
of my 13 girlfriends survived.
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Just you, me, a couple of randos.
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Oh, and that pilot.
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Oh, yeah. What's the latest on him?
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Alive, but not kicking,
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and his lawyers have him
under lock and key.
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Anyway, I cornered my orthopedist
and I asked him,
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"How am I even alive?"
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Turns out it was the Xanax.
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Apparently the first impact
doesn't kill you, it's the bounce-back,
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because, you know, your ribs punch
straight through your organs,
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your spleen, your liver.
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But I was so twacked that I didn't
brace for impact, I just ragdolled.
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Whoa.
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What are the odds?
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Ta-da.
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I mean, I definitely got beat up,
though. [chuckles]
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But, you know,
scars are the tattoos of survival, right?
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You can touch it if you want.
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-You sure?
-Y-Yeah.
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Okay. [chuckles]
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It's literally pigskin.
I know, I'm becoming a human football.
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[Ben, softly] Whoa.
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[scoffs]
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-[Ben] Hmm.
-[sighs]
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Honestly, I think it's pretty badass.
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[Ashley chuckles]
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You know, I heard what you did, Ben.
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Calling all the parents
of Kira's friends who died,
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checking on them.
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You're kind of a good guy.
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Survivor's guilt, mostly.
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Still, it touched them.
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It touched me too.
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Can I ask you a blunt question?
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-Hmm.
-Are you ready?
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[chuckles]
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Do you miss her?
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Kira?
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Yes, of course I do.
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Okay, then what do you miss most?
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-Oh, God, I mean…
-[chuckles]
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[inhales] If I'm…
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[chuckles] If I'm being honest, the sex.
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No, I mean, togetherness.
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We were, what,
only together three… three months?
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You know, she was…
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Manipulative.
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Well…
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demanding when it came to her desire
for certain things in particular.
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Or everything in particular.
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[smacks lips] Well, she called it
knowing what she wanted. [chuckles]
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Is it awful for me to say that
most of the time she was a real bitch?
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-[scoffs]
-Hey, come on. Kira was the type of girl
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that would dip your mascara wand
in the toilet
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and then laugh when you got a sty.
I mean, you dated her, you must know that.
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I'm sorry that that was your experience.
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Is it awful for me to say
that I'm glad she's dead?
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Holy shit, Ashley.
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Okay, I don't mean
I'm glad she's "dead" dead.
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I just mean that, you know, like,
my body feels relief.
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Like, knowing that she's not… [inhales]
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…around all the time. [exhales]
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And I know I'm not the only one
who felt that way, okay?
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I mean, I couldn't make it to her funeral
'cause, you know, I was comatose,
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but what I heard,
that other than her parents and you,
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there was, like… like, one other person.
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Like, someone
from her waitressing days. [scoffs]
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Was that even a friend
or, like, a funeral ghoul?
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I mean, I, of all people, am aware
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that most of her girl gang
got wiped out, but still, yikes.
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-Yeah, Kira was a force. [chuckles]
-[scoffs]
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-She was.
-[chuckles]
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I mean, immediately after starting
to date, we-we move in together? I mean…
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I don't know. Why did I fall so hard?
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Yeah. And so deep.
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Maybe a need for safety.
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Like someone femmy and decisive.
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Like some idealized version
of your mother. [chuckles]
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-Yeah, something like that. Yeah.
-[chuckles]
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Maybe Kira paid someone
to put a love spell on you.
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Like a "love me" roofie, like… [laughing]
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Oh, my God. Whoa. Sorry.
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Whoa, I-I really should not be drinking.
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I-I'm on these, like, heavy antibiotics
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so my body… [chuckles] …doesn't reject
these bacon strips.
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Makes me say the stupidest…
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Okay, maybe we should just
watch a movie… [chuckles] …or something.
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You're not stupid. Not at all.
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-Yeah, let's watch something.
-[chuckles] Okay.
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-I'm gonna finish this, though.
-[laughs]
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[♪ music stops]
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Blanket.
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[exhales] Okay.
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Question.
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Do you like scary movies?
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No, not really.
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Ugh. You big pussy.
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Ooh, I love Pacino.
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I don't think I… knew
this was a Pacino movie.
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Are you kidding me? He's the best part.
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[whispers] Whew, I love it
when he gets all crazy.
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[♪ tense music playing]
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[Ben breathing heavily]
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-Ben?
-Sorry, I'll be right there.
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[♪ eerie music playing]
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-Are you okay? [chuckles]
-Mm-hmm.
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What just happened?
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[whispers] God.
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Why am I so fucking lame?
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[breathing deeply]
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-What?
-I have, uh…
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I have triskaidekaphobia.
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It's not a disease.
It's a real fear of the number 13.
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It started when I was a child.
Once I was walking…
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-Ben, are you serious?
-…through Times Square, right?
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Just headed home from work,
and all of a sudden
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I see this huge ad
for moisturizer in giant letters.
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"Thirteen active ingredients."
[smacks hands] Boom.
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My lizard brain goes Code Red.
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All of a sudden, I instantly vomit
and I black out. I collapse--
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Ben. Ben. I'm afraid of the number 13 too.
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Why do you think I took all that Xanax?
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-Are you serious?
-It was Friday the 13th. Flight 13.
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-The 13th aisle.
-Yeah, that. All that.
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And Kira knew my whole story
and chose to just fly in the face of it.
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What whole story?
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What? Kira… Kira never told you?
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It was May, 2020. A Saturday.
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[♪ Hawaiian music playing]
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[Ashley] The world had been
on lockdown for months.
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All the plans turned upside down.
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What was meant to be my cousin's
Big Island dream destination wedding
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turned into a sad Jersey backyard luau
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complete with a slow-cooked kalua pig.
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[guest 1] Okay, so if we squint,
we're in Hawaii.
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[guest 2] Oh, pooh.
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-It's nice to get out of Gowanus.
-Uh-huh.
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[guest 2] Just enjoy the fresh air
and stop thinking about this--
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-[guest 3] Careful.
-[guest 4] Thanks.
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[guest 1] Is this a joke?
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[guest 3] It's probably good right here.
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[platter thuds]
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Did they even ask
about dietary restrictions? That's sick.
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Just smile and nod.
We'll get takeout on the way home.
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Why are you covering for them?
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I just… I don't want you
to spiral out about nothing.
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You set one foot near your family
and… and you're triggered.
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It's just…
It's-It's the blatant disregard.
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-Excuse me.
-Hey. No, don't. Hey. Come on. No…
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Mmm, no. Sorry, Dad, but no.
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I think that we need to acknowledge
that for this supposedly happy occasion,
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a sentient animal gave everything.
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-A total bloody sacrifice without consent.
-[guests murmur, sigh]
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[guest 1] I think
this pandemic is asking us
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to reevaluate what we need
to survive on this planet.
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We don't need much,
just a roof over our head,
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someone to love, a simple meal
that we can prepare ourselves.
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This needless death
of a noble beast reminds us
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that we have all become
wasteful murderers,
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-each and eve--
-[pig squealing]
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[guests screaming]
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[♪ tense music playing]
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[pig squealing]
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[squelches]
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[guests screaming, shouting]
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[oinks]
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[guests continue screaming]
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[pig squealing]
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[squealing continues]
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[squelching]
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-[squealing]
-[guest 5 screams]
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[crying]
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Open the door! Open, open!
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Open! O--
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[squealing]
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I was the only one of the guests
who made it out alive.
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Thirteen dead.
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Butchered like hogs at a slaughterhouse.
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Ashley, I wish there was something
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-I could--
-Hey, I survived.
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I remain a lucky girl.
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[chuckles]
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I'm really more concerned about you
right now, Ben.
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I mean, Ocean's 13 threw you?
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You know, panic attacks
are actually your body distracting you.
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Each attack stops you
from having to feel psychic pain.
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If you ever want to unpack it,
just know you can.
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Yeah, where would I even begin?
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[scoffs] I don't even remember
much of my childhood.
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I mean…
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Just years and years
and years of memories all blurry.
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[♪ eerie music playing]
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I know I was born on a Friday, the 13th.
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My mother died in childbirth.
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My dad was ill-equipped
to raise me on his own,
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but there were lots of people around.
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Coming and going, checking on me.
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Neighbors from the playground,
uncles and aunties.
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They were from the same church
or something.
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Yeah, we always skipped services.
Never went.
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-[thudding overhead]
-[faint chattering]
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-[ceiling creaking]
-[faint, indistinct chattering]
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[thud]
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But they were so kind, all of them.
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I don't know, it was like
they kind of worshipped me. [chuckles]
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When I was six,
my memory is a little blurry, but…
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-[water splashes]
-[person 1 screams]
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[people clamoring]
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[Ben] It was more blood
than I'd ever seen before.
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-[person 2] Somebody…
-[person 3 exclaims]
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[Ben] This neighbor had fallen down hard.
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She maybe tripped and fell on
a knife that she got from the kitchen.
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[people clamoring]
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My dad, he scooped her up,
put her in his car, sped off.
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Blood alcohol level
at nearly twice the legal limit,
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0.13%.
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[♪ mysterious music playing]
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He ran the stop sign at the T-intersection
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and a pickup truck slammed into them
at 70 miles per hour.
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Killed them both instantly.
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I had no one else.
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They just dumped me into foster care.
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Luckiest people in the world, aren't we?
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Six sets of foster parents. [scoffs]
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Always a new residence every year.
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Each one was a new form of bad.
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But there was one woman, Martha.
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Martha just wanted to be a mom.
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She called me "sonny boy."
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She had handmade decorations
for every holiday.
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Hot breakfasts and Sunday suppers.
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Oh, she just…
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She spent every day
making that house a home for me.
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And then, on my 13th birthday,
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she died,
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at home.
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Pancreatic cancer.
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Did you tell her how you felt?
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Yes. [sniffles]
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At the end, I was with her.
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-That's why--
-Why you do what you do.
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Your 13th birthday.
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You just…
You lose track or you lose your mind.
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And then, Kira,
she was the last time I really…
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[Kira giggles]
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That I felt like I was home.
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[sniffles]
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-[chuckles] Oh, man, I'm sorry.
-[whispers] No, it's okay.
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[Ben breathes shakily]
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[♪ somber music playing]
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[♪ music stops]
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[car horns honking in distance]
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[Ben exhales deeply]
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-Hi.
-Morning.
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Oof. [softly] Sorry about the scratches.
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-I got a little carried away.
-[chuckles]
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00:22:47,366 --> 00:22:49,410
You wait right here, you little freak.
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[chuckling] Jesus.
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00:23:14,018 --> 00:23:15,394
Hi. [chuckles]
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-Should I just hop in?
-Yeah, go for it. It's all yours.
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00:23:23,027 --> 00:23:25,613
Mmm. Cute little tramp stamp
you got there.
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00:23:26,322 --> 00:23:28,073
What? What are you talking about?
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00:23:28,157 --> 00:23:29,158
Above your butt.
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00:23:29,742 --> 00:23:32,328
"616." Your hometown area code?
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00:23:33,120 --> 00:23:34,330
[chuckles]
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00:23:36,916 --> 00:23:37,958
What is that?
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00:23:38,709 --> 00:23:39,710
What do you mean?
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00:23:40,210 --> 00:23:41,253
You didn't draw…
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00:23:41,337 --> 00:23:43,172
[♪ tense music playing]
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00:23:43,255 --> 00:23:45,007
Did you draw on me or something?
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00:23:45,090 --> 00:23:46,634
[Ashley] No, I-I didn't.
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[Ben gasps]
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00:23:49,511 --> 00:23:50,638
[softly] What is that?
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00:23:50,721 --> 00:23:53,515
[Ashley] Did any of those wicked
foster parents ever, I don't…
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00:23:53,599 --> 00:23:54,892
Like, burn you?
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00:23:54,975 --> 00:23:56,018
Jesus. No.
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00:23:59,813 --> 00:24:01,690
Well, that's not ink. It's a brand.
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[♪ tense music continues]
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00:24:07,071 --> 00:24:08,697
[♪ music intensifies]
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[♪ music ends]
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[♪ mysterious music playing]
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00:25:50,007 --> 00:25:51,091
[♪ music ends]